i love jesse lacey.
his new songs make me wanna dance my ass off.
i think i want to major in dance parties, baby.
screw college and baby, lets dance.
put that body in motion.
i don't want this to end.
i don't want to get my things climb those stairs and go.
--thanks tilly, i totally just stole some part of your song.

i can't find freaking limejuice anywhere.
i just got a 2/10 on jilllly slimeysmphony's .
sometimes when i have lost all sense of self, i really love that song, "my humps", because i want to get you drunk, lovedrunk off of my humps." oh man, i'm ridiculous.

i freaking love target. i spent so much money there but it was so fucking worth it. i loveee target. i have also become really into post-its, and talking on the phone. i used to hate talking on the phone, but now its a necessity, and i need to spend 700 minutes so I might as well. I can't use commas properly.

mini quiz made by me:

school spirited items of clothing : 3
cans of sunkists left: 3
best friends i am missing like crazy : 5
number of britney spears songs i have: 15
my dinner: veryberry smoothie and macaroni&cheese
time i brushed my teeth: 12:32
number of facebook wall messages received today: 7 (wtf??)
pairs of twins i met today: 1

i thought that kid that makes smoothies on the 3rd shift at mirror lake was the cutest one i've seen so far in the whole ohio state university.

i wish i were a playful english maiden.
watch the golden globes. i love tv.
and colin firth. and emma t.

edit: i love it when issac mizrahi outs ryan secrest like no other.

a bird pooped on my head last night.
i think good things are ahead.

i have worked on my presentation for the last couple of days...all mentally. since its only a 5 minute speech, i have been postponing it becuase its so damn "easy", and deciding to spend my time with my cuties instead of work. its due in 8 hours and 16 minutes. WOOO. i suck.

thanksgiving was great. i had to go to my dad's side and my mom's side, even though she was stuck in ohio by herself. i ate dessert exclusively at one place..and food at the others. some people have their stregnths in some areas than others. twas delicious and i dare not weigh myself.

yesterday, i took the 40 mile trip from my dad's house to karis' at 2 in the morning (till 6). it really is weird how much i've bonded with her and it makes me scared because i have become so dependent on her. i don't like become dependent on people for some reason, i like to take care of myself. i'm aloof like that, sometimes. i like having friends though, i'm weird.

i went to black friday...or as i like to call it "what the hell am i doing up this early?" friday. i got pushed by an overeager shopper at 5am on best buy's property. it was great. things i bought:
-- 1 gig memory card
-- rechargable batteries
-- ipod speakers
-- office space: special edition with extra flair!

i also got @ the (willowbrook jersey represent) mall!
-- 4 hoodies
-- 2 thermal pants
-- 2 poofy vests
-- 1 western shirt
-- 2 pants
-- 2 long sleeve shirts

i love the holidays, but i end up buying things only for myself & not others.
this year i want to spend on others. wahoo for giving.
um hugs and groping
meeeeeeee

i'm not going home for thanksgiving.
its not economically feasible or smart to just go for 3 days.
this blows.

From left to right:
1. Unidentified Adorable Freshman 2. Unidentified Cute Freshman 3. Karis 4. Juliana 5. Matt

i am turning into the smelly kid & i like it (sometimes). kim is sleeping over because her roommate has her mom over. we took one of the extra mattresses from alice's triple and brought it into my room. we collected sheets and comforters from other rooms and made her a lovely bed -- so if i ever have guests, i know where they are going. wahoo.

i skipped sign language today to sleep. it was marvelous. karis and i then had some chipotle, and it was my only meal of the day so i didn't feel disgusting afterward.

tonights law and order was amazing. i love sweeps, all the TVshows are super exciting around this time. w00t. peace.

this is from the mp3experiment i did last sunday. i am very short compared to this man.

holla.

hi strangers.
i give out IOU's to people and sign them on old receipts and promise them that i will pay them in the near future. i have reached a new low of poorness. my life consists of appointments after appointments, not so much as a resolve though.

lately, i've been following the post-baseball season pretty heavily. uh go yankees? i have trouble sleeping and Thucydides' views on War/Peace isn't doing the trick as they usually do.

i don't know whether to take the bus to school or the subway. i am not going to allow myself get scared on this whole subway threat, even if theres cops outside my building at all hours.

i need a partner in crime.

things i've learned so far:

1. the importance of sun-screen. my face is red like a tomato. i stayed inside today.
2. i say "i'm sorry" too much.

4. eisley brings down the freaking house.
5. celebrities don't wear signs on top of their heads telling you their famous (damnnit).
6. life here is super expensive--but its ofsetted by its sun & palm trees.
7. i am losing my hearing and eyesight. i thought this happened much later.
8. i love captian crunnnch@!

hahah my friends listen to weird artists and i like to quote them. m.i.a, anyone? well, not much has been happening other than the fact that i have 6 days left in ohio, and about 3 weeks till my school officialy starts. i'm estatic. i want to breathe in some polluted air.
i don't know if i should volunteer for CMJ. Its not really worth it since I'll probably only go to one/two shows, and once again the whole fact that i'm not 21. hmm i'll think about it. why does everyone have a fake id?
since my last update -- i have finished listening to the audiobook of Goblet of Fire. Finished reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phenoix, and am currently reading Half Blooded Prince, even though I know what happens. I also have been eating a lot of chicken disguised as dinosaurs. I keep forgetting that I was completely against chicken about 2 years ago.
( dinosaur shaped chicken! )

love.

somethings i ordered off of ebay are coming in today (says the USPS website) and I'm really looking forward to it. just a couple of journals. i really like it when i get inspired and then i can't do anything but the task at hand. do you ever get like that? its a wonderful high, but when its gone i just feel sad.

i like giving people nicknames, even though they have nothing to do with them. mostly though i just give my mom nicknames because its kind of weird when a 19 year old screams "mommmy!" in a supermarket. So my mom's initials are F.E.G. and as much as I would love to call my mom feg at the top of my lungs, some people might think thats weirder than the former. So I now call her "Figgy" and she has yet to accept this nick name as well as she has the others. I don't think she likes it much, but ill keep with it. In a couple of years we'll laugh about it, Figgy & I.

my ipod has gone crazy as well as my laptop. the laptop refuses to recognize the ipod. i-tunes refuses to update the songs. since the laptop doesn't recognize the ipod, i can't reformatt it. tis quite horrible but i am glad i'm still under warranty. i'm going to the apple store today to see whats up. they probably won't like the fact that its all scratched up, but i can probably beat them up. always the answer to everything.

( Best Goodwill find, ever )

I miss my nose ring. I think I am going to get it pierced again once I have a steady job in New York, if I ever do. If not, I'll re-pierce it for when I study abroad. Wherever abroad might be -- either London, Sevilla or Rome. If you haven't caught on, I am not all that decisive.

My 21 year old cousin is getting married next week. This is so surreal because she was the same cousin I would look up to, and listen to Alanis Morrisette & Collective Soul (that one December song?) with when I was 11. I used to be kinda cool back then. I don't have a dress yet, oops.

love and vice,
melissa

my generation (our generation, really) is going to be the first to not surpass our parents financially. isn't that something? i think its because everything is handed to us, i mean it my case it is, and i don't know how that makes me feel. i think more than ever, everyone i seem to talk to is confused on what to do with their life. its not such an easy decision, there are too many factors and variables.

i love bidding on ebay, it makes my heart race.
my sewing machine has something wrong with the tension, the thread keeps breaking.
my feet are in so much pain that even my nails hurt.
tomorrow is friday (payday) & i work. meggie let me pick what tables i wanted. so hot.
my boss calls me gomeezee, i chuckle but i really just want to through a lasagna at his head.

miss you lovers.
gomeezee

a pictoral representation of the entry.

i sat on the loveseat intently watching the television. i was slowly picking out spoonfulls of the vanilla-fudge low-carb icecream nicely situated in my obscurely large coffee cup. john mayer was on some pbs special, i have yet to figure out how pbs & john mayer got together, but i didn't question it and just stared. he is amazing at what he does, even though it is semi-awkward how he expresses every note in his face. i decided that i still loved(?) him anyway. i then took my laptop and its newly acquired wireless internet and headed to my nice bed.

i made a new friend today at training. his name is chris and he does server support, which means he helps me with dishes from the kitchen and cleaning up the tables. he is really nice and one of those smart kids that will eventually do some good in the world (he's doing some ridiculous major like biochemical engineering). we made a deal that if he helped me a lot with my tables, i'd tip him really well. its nice to have a partner in crime. my longtime friend meg works there also as a saluta/greeter, so i have all my bases covered except for the chef. its all about networking, i guess. i met some other nice girls but they were already in groups from the day before, so whatev.

i don't mind all that much that this is all i do, it would be nice to see other humans in a non-restaurant setting but i don't mind it much. i just want save some money up. i'm pretty sure that i will not be going to europe this summer, this saddens me but such is life. my next alternative is canada: where i could gamble a few of my dollars and drink frozen fruit cocktails, legally. i'm looking into it, canada intrigues me. i also can't forget los angeles at the end of august. i'm really excited, i wish i could be a professional nomad. i'd be pretty good at it.

my mom has misplaced my favourite self-help book, Succulent Wild Woman, it was inspiring and I guess I should go search for it. You should check out it, really.

Peace.

p.s. today i saw my optima amica at Rave Motion Pictures. It makes sense because she works there, and I want you to update your journal, damnnn ittt!!

p.s.s. lynda, i saw your parents today at applebees.

p.s.s.s. i told you guys this was a small town.

my stories come with pictures: mgomez.

i didn't do so great the semester of spring 2005 (i've got some C's). i guess one of my biggest problems is balance and/or the fact that i didn't like any of the classes i was taking. i keep saying this, but i don't think i am meant to become a business major. i can't see myself doing a regular 9-5 job, but i squashed the idealistic part of myself some time ago. hopefully, i can get myself out of this rut, or at least find someone who will do my homework for me.

meli sets fire: you should wake up and party with me.
meli sets fire: i am at the library.
meli sets fire: books & atlases & computers.
meli sets fire: i should be applying for jobs but nahh...lets get suitors.

what can i say? poems/songs just leak right out of me.
rilo kiley tonight. i shall be wearing...i dont know yet, but i always think its funny when people know ahead of time. i'm pretty sure it will be clothes though. yes.

WAHOO. I am taking the most boring classes next year but i am so excited for it. I am just glad that if I stay at this school, I will be able to get a photography minor. !!! Its so weird to see my room covered in water bottles, i've become a water drinker. My favourite water brands are Poland Spring and California favourite Arrowhead. I love how this is completely pointless.

So I move out of the dorms on April 30th, but my last day isn't until May 11th. My dad and his wife are going to Florida so there is no one who can move me out later. I am excited for them leaving because I think I might just drive to Boston or Rhode Island and have a grand old time with myself or maybe YOU would like to come with me. Probably Karis.

schedule for fall 2005

financial accounting !!

business law !!

public speaking !!

statistics !!

photography !!!

riveting.
i think i am going to go to bed and then to central park. i fell asleep at battery park yesterday with lady liberty watching me sleep. she is creepy.

meet me in the corner of hicks and love, dear.

i have another hole in my face! wahooo

p.s. yes, this totally means i got my nose pierced.